I'm not sure it counts as summer vacation since I just started it 2 weeks ago. Maybe it's more of a Summer/Fall semester sort of thing but I've begun a very large project.
I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired if you know the saying. I'm over my body breaking down on a weekly basis. I'm definitely not down for the radical spine surgery they want to do on me and I'm seriously over this whole kidney/tube closure thing that is slowing me down considerably right now. I'm just really tired if you want to know.
So a couple months ago when this all went down the "hey lets cut you open and put more titanium bolts in you" I got pretty down about it and then I thought what am I doing? I have this whole team of eastern medicine doctors on speed dial lets see if there's anything they know that I don't. And so it began... all over body testing that resulted in testing positive for parasites [herb therapy], discussions about how to really move my spine [aggressive acupuncture and not very fun body work] and the worse part of it all figuring out what it all means emotionally and spiritually that I'm here. In this place. Once again.
Two weeks ago I began the seemingly biggest project ever. Two times a week at acupuncture, once a week doing this skeletal manipulation, herbs, thinking, breathing, praying A LOT if you want to know. My full time project that is my body is REALLY now a full time project and a very, very expensive one at that. We will be doing most all of this for the next 8 months.
Not really what you want to do when you're unemployed, but then again I don't really have a choice any more. It's this, chronic pain, or more titanium screws and a lot of drugs for the pain. Part of my prayer is asking to provide the funds. So far it's working ok but it of course makes me nervous none the less. [taking ad sponsors/ or health care fund donations should you be feeling charitable at the moment]
So anyway, that's what's been going on around here. It's making me kinda quiet lately. I'm not up for chatting much with friends – I haven't decided why that is just yet I just don't have a lot of words for it. My first day of body work was today which made my eyes spill with tears which of course I can't really tell you why. I'm not gonna lie it kinda sucks if you really want to know - all of this crap.
So there you have it. My big hairy project unveiled. Wish me luck, Say a prayer, offer to Buddha, pray to a chicken, whatever it is that you do please send a good thought or two my way. I need them all.