Monday, January 02, 2012

2012 goals

do you find it difficult to write down goals? I do. Especially in the last couple of years of freelance. I feel like half the time I don't know what I want, so how can I really ask for it if I don't know what it is? here.lies.the.trouble. I am wobbling around like a teenager without a plan. "What's your plan B?", the universe asks. "I.don't.know", I say to the universe, staring at my toes like a lost kid.

I hate numbers, they hate me. It's a mutual dislike but we're more civil as of late. This is the part that makes a good business person, the ability to be creative and charge appropriately. That, and endless amounts of energy to stay up till 3am drawing out plans for whatever is happening next [like a woman I do freelance work for - she's a great business person by the way] I like to sleep at 3am myself. I get cranky without sleep.

I can tell you for every day I feel like "gosh I'm really doing this" there are 3 days that I want to hide under my desk because I can't even pay myself. Today is one of those days, so I'm not feeling so spiffy at the moment. The days when I'm kicking ass I really do. Sometimes I can't believe all the cool stuff I get to do, it's amazing. If money didn't matter I would do this till I died. But that's not my reality.

here's what I'm thinking about: I might be someone who needs to work for someone else. That makes me sad to say that, that I might not have the stuff to be an entrepreneur. everyone else seems to be making it, but it's not working for me. The twitter and blog world are full of great entrepreneurs. Maybe they are having days like mine and not talking about them. I wish they would.

It's bad of me to tell the truth here in this forum I realize. This is the land of happy, shiny, sparkles. Alas, it's what's happening today. With that...I still have some things to accomplish.

here's what I would like to do in 2012

• be creative every day
• make amazing paper
• get paid biweekly with a salary that will support me and help us save some money for a rainy day
• work close to home
• get published in a prominent magazine
• work with some amazing big budget clients
• work flexible hours
• get exercise in daily
• take a vacation with my husband. we have still not had a honeymoon.
• take a trip with my girlfriends.

good pictures - of course, pinterest


Christina said...

I think your work is amazing! And, I can't wait to send out the beautiful wedding invitations you designed for us. I think the start of a new year is a great time to reflect, and I admire you for your candor about your goals. You should know, however, that you are a very talented person with a very strong business sense. Remember, I found out about your great work from THE Rachel Zoe :)

Richie Designs said...

Thanks Christina -

your invites are the BOMB btw...working on them currently. I guess I just need more bombs to be happening ;)

never fear, the wind will shift tomorrow and I'll probably scrap this whole real job thing again.