Hello, how are you?

It's a simple enough question in your day. How are you? I'm fine.



What happens when you're not so fine? No one really wants to know about those days do they? I don't even want to know about my not so fine days and I'm living them. These are the questions that I wonder about.

In the scheme of things am I fine? sure, I suppose. I woke up this morning so that's a plus, I'm upright which is another bonus. But in reality things are not fine.


I've had the most horrible week and I want it to end. I want it to wash away with our So Cal Rain's back into the ocean where it came. I want my bad mood to go with it. I want everything to return to it's happy shiny self. I would like me to return to my happy shiny self. It's hard to be your happy shiny self sometimes don't you agree? shake your head yes.



What could be so bad you are probably asking? Well, this whole emergency surgery no #456 to start. I go back on Wed to see if they found anything new. Going to the ER every 3-4 months is not on my agenda anymore. It needs to stop. I'm ok now but you know a rough few days.

The other things? marriages dissolving around me, information about a friend's diagnosis of breast cancer this weekend and then to top it all off? A woman I use to work with her 13 year old son choked on a hotdog and died last week. I mean really? really? this is not allowed. not ever

So to answer your question?
I'm fine. hoping to be "good to better" by the week's end.



cute art sometimes makes it better everything picturedthe cutest artwork via johnwgolden